The Dilemma of Change

For as long as I could remember, I’ve always had a weird relationship with CHANGE; in the sense where I seek it while being afraid of it at the same time. It’s like riding a bicycle without stabilizers for the first time; wanting it so much but petrified of the fall and the pain that I might endure.

My 2020-year started with a major change in my life where my family and I moved halfway across the world. I can’t deny how freaked out I was: the change was drastic! But at the same time, the reward and the growth were tremendous. We hit the ground running, settling-in within a month and our new change slowly became comforting. Simply, I took a decision and followed it through. Once again it was that relationship that I had when deciding to “change”.

It amazes me how this relationship can manipulate the wellbeing when the wrong mindset is there. It’s an amalgamation of so many feelings that pushes you to your limits. But once the decision is made, following through that calculated risk of change, a good feeling takes over: acceptance of the outcome (Joy is a bonus).

Then a pandemic hits the world and everything comes to a stop and this reality pushes an unplanned, unexpected, unwelcomed change. No calculated risks there. No planned scenarios there. No weighing of any choices. A flat fact descends and pushes you to accommodate a “change”. I’m writing this with more than 4-weeks of social distancing under my belt. Yes, my emotions went through all the stages: shock, anger, fear, sorrow, negotiation and now acceptance.

Oh CHANGE, how I hate you this time around. But I’m not going to burn any bridges with you. I still need you (it might have taken me a long time to realize it) but you are one of the reasons why I am who I am today. Yes, the dilemma of having you over and over again in my journey of life made me “ME”. My openness to change made me rethink certain realities, opinions, relationships, jobs, choices, friendships and much more…

Openness to change makes us rethink certain realities, opinions, relationships, jobs, choices, friendships and much more…Change is a requirement for growth.

It’s not easy to sign up for the thought of change, but I have experienced first-hand that it is a requirement for growth. Even through a pandemic, there is growth.


Author: Rana AlBasri Mouawad

I question a lot! My aim is to challenge the old mindset and open doors to creativity in life, at work and in business. We all Make Waves and I am here to help build your brand.

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